Battle Scars

The fight rages on. 

Sometimes I wonder if there will ever be a lull in the battle. A time to catch my breath and rest. At the same time, I question whether I am engaging in this ongoing warfare with the proper focus and determination, or with the belief that I will prevail. 

In essence, I am asking myself if am I strong enough to even be in the fight.

Whether or not I believe in any of my abilities or strengths, it does not change the fact there is a war taking place. This then leaves me with limited options on how best to deal with this reality.

On one level I can give into feeling sorry for myself and be resigned to the thought processes screaming at me, which mock my efforts with accusations of being useless - feeble - without  merit or value. Or I can acknowledge my weakness in order for God’s strength to be made perfect in me. 

If I exercise the latter course of action, then the onus on my performance is nullified, thereby releasing me from striving under my own strength to change my circumstances. I am only required to trust God in them - even when He “feels” distant, or I feel insufficient to the task at hand.

You may ask - how can I be sure of this? Well, instead of trying to logically or analytically offer up a persuasive argument, I will defer to God’s own words:

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ~ 2nd Corinthians 12: 9