Quiet Storm

Thoughts swirl in my mind as I attempt to make sense of my present circumstances. I review in my mind for the hundredth, or maybe the thousandth time how I ended up in this scenario….again.

I feel robbed. Put out. Misunderstood.

But what I see may not be what it seems. I have filters that degrade, deflect, denounce, possibly even deny the truth of what is actually taking place. I am doubtful of my own perceptions, but at the same time challenged by what I am sure I see before me.

Multiple voices are speaking - vying for my attention - all trying to convince me their way - their version of events is the one I should adhere to. They rise in pitch and volume, seeking to hold me fast in their grip. They make valid-sounding arguments which attempt to lure me into agreeing with their positions. Logical, concise, precise arguments. Arguments that on closer inspection are devoid of Grace.

But something in the periphery of my mind, my soul, my spirit, tickles my senses, wondering if there may be more - or less - to what I am perceiving in the natural. In my attempts to see past what my natural eyes see, in order to perceive what is going on behind the very scenes challenging my limited understanding, requires from me a level of trust and vulnerability that feels uncomfortable.

I am then reminded of Proverbs 3: 5-8:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight.
Do not be wise in your one eyes; fear the Lord and turn away from evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.

This then ties into what (for me) may be one of the most challenging, but absolutely necessary things to do while contending for my mind as I trust God:

Being still.

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still ~ Exodus 14:14

One final reminder. Being still does not have to be done in solitude. Yes, there are times when  we need to get alone with God, but just as important are the times when we need to seek out and be with those who are trustworthy. Those who can stand with and support you in the process of quietly waiting on the Lord.